BRYAN TAN is his name, HONGHONG is the other way his friends and family known him as.
Born in the year of 1988 and has MOST of his genes from his mum.
HE's kind of different from the others, CARS are just a transportation vehicles for him,
not a toy where all boys can go crazy for them.
CHATTING till the wee hours he never missed,
what is life without messenger he says.
SHOPPING is what he enjoy doing most of the time,
nothing is wrong pampering yourself no ?
MOVIES will never be out from his what-should-i-do list,
romance is his favourite,
horror really hunts him down.
when u heard someone say CAMWHORE king is here ,
that must be HIM.
HE loves looking into the mirror,
even a pool of water can stop him by,
he don't care what people think how he looks like,
what he know is he's deeply in ("v")LOVE("v") with himself.
10:51 AM
Yeah yeah u are not looking at the wrong site, im actually updating ma blog (Can't believe Sept 2009 post still appear in the main page)
I can't believe i ran out of words, not knowing what to type like really ? HOW do i come out with all the words in all the previous posts ? HAHAHA!
Watched with lingling,chin and butter on sunday, the part which really made ma tear were them hugging each other crying how they afraid losing each other.
Searching soulmates has been one of the things-to-do in life, we felt in love, we got heart broken, we tear and we stand up searching for love again. The process just goes on searching for that soulmate, that very soul that is waiting to be found.
If you are lucky to have found that very soul, who accepts your weakness (make it you have very bad temper or u fart every few seconds which in the end all these elements were cute to them! HAHA! ITS JUST EXAMPLE OK ! IT DOES NOT APPLY TO ME!), who will take care and shower you when u are very sick, who you know they will always be there for you, appreciate it.
Stop searching, stop demanding for more because none is perfect. It's 2 imperfect puzzles that need to be matched, for a beautiful picture.
I always love wedding vows, It's beautiful yet meaningful.
"I offer you my solemn vow to be your faithful partner in sickness and in health, in good times and in bad, and in joy as well as in sorrow. I promise to love you unconditionally, to support you in your goals, to honor and respect you, to laugh with you and cry with you, and to cherish you for as long as we both shall live."
To be able to vow, these 2 soulmates must be very in love.
Howevern, the other version of vow i saw from gossip girl made me tear ! It's so beautiful i wanna share with you all.
Cyrus : I, Cyrus take you to be no other than yourself. Eleanor : I give you my love, i am my beloveds and my beloved is mine.
ISNT THAT LIKE BEAUTIFULLY WRITTEN ?!!! I have watched this scene like more than 6 times ! AT LEAST 6 times i watch ! Short and lovely enough =)
So if you have got heart broken, got cheated, don't stop. Cry over it, go bang the wall, go eat whatever that cheer you up or maybe try bungee jumping.
Never give up searching for that someone, who will be there for you, ANYTIME.
Owh for people who misses me so much ! I know you love me =) please please ignore the dark circle, IM AN AUDITOR CAN ! HAHAHA !
(Picture taken at 石狮)
There was never a night or a problem that could defeat sunrise or hope. Today is another day.
I have so many things to tell you, yet i don't wanna worry you.
I just want you to be healthy and happy.
Dear son.
I have so many things I have not told mum about situation back here, even telling her about me skipping dinner makes her worry.
I'm a grown up now, be strong and face it !
Every problem have a solution to it, every locks has its own key, every heart has an owner, I heard that a heart will be only perfect if you found another person to take care of it.
I guess i'll have to find the solution, the key and the owner then.
I love you mum, don't worry I'll take care of maself, loving the body and soul that u gave me =)
9:27 AM
I don't deny that i went all the way to club or to the city sitting down sipping coffee just to look at gorgeous peoples around, the way they doll up, the shopping bags they carries and of course what i like to see most, features of humans( oh yeah i loveeeeeeee looking at faces because no one has 100% identical features not even twins)
The first thing i see on a human, not their sexy legs nor their eyes but nose. Yes, the first thing i see on anyone passing by me from an infant to old folks is their nose, maybe because i think i don't have a gorgeous one (I WAN HIGHER NOSE BRIDGE!!!) or just that i'm weird.
I used to tell mum how desperate I want to have plastic surgery not on anywhere else but nose, a tall sharp gorgeous attractive nose, but mum always say that mine is gorgeous enough and i don't need them(i think she lie lie oni lorh cause dun wan sponsor me T_T).
Now i'm a grown up(hmm I THINK! HAHA) though deep in ma heart i still feel that everyone elses nose are gorgeous but mine I now decided that plastic surgery is a bad bad choice because having braces is already one of the item in I REGRET DOING IT list, i kind of misses what god and mum gave me
the cute little tiger teeth i used to hate so much (i still remember stupid primary friends ask me whether do i suck blood RAWR ! maybe i should suck theirs for asking me such a ques and giving me sleepless nite worrying i'll turn into a vampire and suck daddy and mummy's blood)
So i wonder what if after having a tall nose bridge i then have to complain ma face is too big to match the pair of nose then i'll have to sharpen ma face, then ma tiny little eyes might not bring out the features of ma face but a pair of huge gorgeous blinky blinky (maybe honey brown)eyes, then a need to have sexy abs to carry out the face(cannot be a guy with such a great features matching a fat tummy), then i might not be tall enough to carry out the body i need to add bones into ma legs, maybe a tan skin tone to give me more masculinity(though i wish to have fair white skin because it looks clean!) oh i might need a brazilian wax by that time too because i'll be going to the beach to show off ma sexy body(without body hair ! WAKAKA)
In the very end i might look like
THIS ! (gosh it will cost me a fortune ! HAHAHAHA!)
OR You women(who is reading ma blog) may looks like
THIS !
LIFE WILL BE SO WONDERFUL no ? every pair of eyes will just follow wherever you go, no matter what you are wearing(in their mind u better don't wear anything) or what you are carrying.
One question, How long beauty stays ?
Another, How do you define beautiful ?
All these questions kind of bombard me after staying with a both old couple, what will we be when we are old ? They seems to wake up had breakfast and went into their room watching tv, maybe went out and walk around and go back to their own room, uncle will be cleaning his antiques and auntie will be cleaning the house again and again and again, cleaning any single dust in the house.
What will ma life be when i'm old ? Will I be sitting down there(alone?) watching tv 24/7? Wake up super early-breakfast-TV-NAP(old ppl loves doing this)-lunch-tv-NAP-tv-dinner-tv-SLEEP super early?
All these question sum into one big question, What are we doing here on earth ? or do u want it to be WHAT ON EARTH ARE WE DOING HERE?
I took ma own sweet time walking from home to office(which is so very long to me) thinking and thinking all these questions(which i have yet to find an answer to them)
Are we here cause we want to learn? Why do we learn ? We gain knowledge and we saves people, help victims in courts or even passing down the education(in short TO WORK) but then another question came, What for ? MONEY you say ? then i'll have another question, you work so hard for money and you have wealth but in the end you have no health, in the end you spend a fortune trying to keep yourself survive (let's say in a luxury hospital) having to suffer from surgery or even needles, and then you are dead.
Can you bring your money along?
So there it goes another circle back to the topic, Why are we here? Wanting so hard being gorgeous and have every single attention on you? In the end you might have everyone looking at you when you are young but what if from
This and this(though i think the ads really sells HAHA), you turn into
This and this ? Will you still be buying ARMANI if they are still modeling for the ads ?
Money is immortal, but beauty can be, if you found true love, who will still loves you and think that you are gorgeous(when your hair turns grey, when you start losing your teeth,when your gorgeous face wrinkled up or even boobs hanging down due to the forces of gravity), and of course love who will stay with u through thick and thin, it doesn't matter if it's your partner, your family or your friends, as long as it's LOVE.
That's why i felt in love with Sonnet 18 even the first time reading it, it is so beautifully written.
Shall I compare thee to a summer's day? Thou art more lovely and more temperate: Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May, And summer's lease hath all too short a date: Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines, And often is his gold complexion dimmed; And every fair from fair sometime declines, By chance, or nature's changing course untrimmed; But thy eternal summer shall not fade, Nor lose possession of that fair thou ow'st; Nor shall death brag thou wand'rest in his shade, When in eternal lines to time thou grow'st: So long as men can breathe or eyes can see, So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.
(William Shakespeare, 1609)
I think my answer to why I AM HERE (because everyone has diff answers-to them wealth might still stands for them), is to search for happiness, still it takes (at least) two to tango, laughing at someone elses joke, their funny faces or even sometimes misses someone so much can make you happy, so indirectly i need to search for LOVE.
Though money can still buy love(what about true ones?), can buy attention, can buy you almost everything(even bring you to the outer space),
but do they buy you LONG TERM HAPPINESS ?
Friends and of course family(though i don't think they will be reading this), I love you and please if god thinks that it's time for me to go back before you, don't mourn too long, smile or laugh thinking how silly boy i am, making funny faces, telling silly jokes, or maybe me maself already looks funny and keep me in your memory, so that i'll be immortal, the love between us will be immortal, because if i love seeing you guys happy, just a smile will do !(better if it's a big grin from ears to ears) NGEK !
I know you guys still can't resist all these temptation so i share share with you la new ARMANI model ! sharing is caring ma !
and of course ma picture for you guys who misses me a lot !
5:42 PM
Remember when we were young we'll be asked to fill in the AMBITION part every year?
Police is ma 1st choice ! YEAH i know right ! HAHAHAHA ! I used to thought being a police is something YENG about ! All James bond's fault ! After seeing police tend to get more bullets in action , i gave up ! I KIA SI ! XD
Then teacher is ma second choice, this is kind of an influence from my mum, i kind of want to take her step (like what most of the people are doing) because mum is always my idol, i love her so much i want to be like her ! a teacher ! come on name me a job that has the longer holiday than a teacher-NONE ! Still, growing up tells me that being a teacher(somemore now cannot provide tuitiion outside!) will not be enough for ma expenses and ma dream of traveling around(DISNEYLAND!!!)
Ma third choice is accountant(which is what i am currenly doing), yeah i have been writing accountant in the ambition part since primary 2, why you asked ? honestly, that's because i don't know what else to write beside police and teacher i went asking ma mum and she name me a few. Doctor ? (no no no BLOOD EWWW! but i love chemistry class) Lawyer? ( Har so many things to remember) Engineer( I have no idea what that is last time) Accountant ( Yeah here come something that is related to NUMBERS and it used to be on the top list of what is the better paid job)
so ACCOUTANT it is.
Then i went growing up, still not knowing what my real interest are, i've decided to take up the course i'm best at (numbers and accounts).
Between the stage of being a MAN(YEAH I KNOW I'm 21 ALREADY), i kind of have interest in so many different kind of things, curiosity or love i'm still confused.
Deep inside i have so many dreams, I want to be this this this and that ! Which one should i be ? What is weird is accountant is not in the list now.
Now i am almost done with it(hopefully i pass the last few papers), still i have no idea is this what i really want and continue to work for my future. Maybe through these years i may love it or i may not, it is still good to learn.
Since i took this path i should at least get some experience out of it, learn something from it. If in the end I find that this is not ma cup of tea I am so gonna try other different things. There are tooo many things that are attractive ! Photography is one thing I feel like going deeper, learning more of it.
It's never too late though, Russell James (one of the photographer i am impressed of especially the underwater ROLEX picture which i could not find in the net), A relative latecomer to professional photography, Russell lived a nomadic existence until becoming ‘obsessed’ with photography at the age of 30. Up to then, he had experimented with a number of careers, starting work in a metal factory in Perth, Australia, aged 15, before becoming a labourer, a tradesman and even a police officer for a couple of years! But rather than being a hindrance to his career, Russell has found that the broad knowledge and experience he acquired in those earlier years have given him a greater insight into subjects and influenced his perception of images through the lens. Yeah he only start at the age of 30 and now he's with Victoria Secret (woot woot) and Rolex and all WHAT MORE DATING KRISTIN DAVIS !!! (Charlotte from Sex and the City) !
So now I've to put my other dreams aside, working on what i should do now and maybe fulfilling my dream along the way. This is REALITY.
‘The harder I work the luckier I get’. That is the truth of success.
Here i share with you some shots from James ( Personally still love the Rolex one!)
12:23 AM
YEAH IT's 090909 !!! I KNOW I KNOW and i'm already expecting something to happened, if i am not wrong something happened to me on 060606 and 070707, i think i'm kind of safe on 080808 and here it comes 090909....
I woke up rushing here and there took ma phone and think twice not to bring another one, in short i only brought one(because it's smaller) and left home. On the way listening to RADIO saying there are so many ppl registering today because it's a beautiful day - 长长久久so i thought maybe nothing will happened to me this year (am here wishing every couple 长长久久 alright ^^)
Then i reached Pyramid and work out, MANA TAU EVEN BEFORE WORK OUT ! MA PHONE IS DEAD ! it is actually DEAD before i work out~ I WAS LIKE HOWWWWWWW !!! HOW TO CONTACT ANYONE T____T *Baru saja tuan scolded me for not using public phone but I DONT WANT USE AH BLEK !*
but u are still hurting me so much, i couldn't bear it, i don't know how.
I was lucky that ma fren went meeting me there, borrowed her battery and smsed important ones. OK SO FINE I WAS LUCKY THEN !
WASN't THAT BAD actually~ Somemore can have sedap food and shopping at night, saw GARY CHAW GE having dinner with his family at Vietnamese kitchen, he was like covering covering scared ppl can recognise him ! OF COURSE WE CAN FROM THE WAY HE DRESS AND TATTOO ! he should have wore a Tshirt and Cap instead of VEST and exposing his tattoo~
Ma mum just can't get her eyes off from him =..= HE IS MARRIED OK MUM SO DO U ! XD
and watched GAMER premiere with bitch dan lain-lain at night ! don't really like the movie much, more like the view u got from playing counter strike ! KAKAKA~ maybe i'm just not into those action movie but ppl like DIEHARD ok ! or izzit DIEHEART ! WATEVER LA CAN ! as long as i know something like that XD
OK FINE IT WAS ACTUALLY A GREAT DAY ! Just don't scare me with phone dead anymore because ppl don't use public phone one !
Me and ma new hair wish u all happy 090909 !!! *TUAN UR SMS REPLIED HERE ! I WISHED U BACK LIAO ! U BETTER LOVE MA NEW HAIR*
